I went and saw Ward play at Jammin Java last night. I foget how talented he is until I see him play. Listening to him play cello made me want to go and watch an orchestra perform somewhere. I had a lot of fun. It was the first time in a while that I got dolled up to go out. I'll admit that I felt a little silly looking nice but at least Marjorie did it with me. And it was refreshing to look nice without the intentions of trying to impress some boy, we simply did it for ourselves.

So I'm going "home" to Charleston this weekend. By home I mean the place where my mommy lives becuase I don't exactly live there, I don't really even have a room there anymore. But I'm okay with that because it is just another sign that I am growing up and getting out on my own. Sometimes when I meet my bestfriend's people she introduces me as being from Columbia. But I'm not from Cola. I consider myself as being from Chuck town but living in Cola.

"At the end of the day grace wins" It doesn't matter what the day looked like or what happened, grace always wins.

I need to hear some love words from God. there's a place deep inseide of me crying out to be loved. Its always there but it is very prevelant today. I don't want to try to seek out the affection from someone else that I know I need from God. I need to spend time with God. I have to! How does the world live without Him? It is sometimes hard for me to accept that I don't have to clean myself up before I come to see him. How can he love me so passionatley? Even thoug I don't really understand it, I am thankful for the way he loves me. He deserves better than what I can give him. But it isn't about me. Its not about me!Thats a relief.
He speaks to my heart: "I adore you more than completely" (The Falls Lost).