Autumn

I love the smells of fall, especially cinnamon, apple cider and pumpkin things. I had a pumpkin bagel with pumpkin cream cheese on it today. Yuuummmmyyy. And the pumpkin latte from Starbucks (I don't feel I have to justify going there) is sooooo good. Yes, fall is nice. Until it starts getting really cold. But a little crispness in the air would be nice. I wish leaves changed colors here. I know they do a little sometimes, but I want an abundance of color. Anyone interested in going upstate for a day trip to see the trees in the next few weeks?

My mom gave me a cinnamon broom which is currently in my room right now. It was a strong, almost over powering smell at times. But it smells like fall in my room now so that makes me happy. And I have a spiced cider candle that is amazing (not that I burn it in my dorm room...well maybe I do sometimes but I keep an eye on it).

Anyways, enough about fall. I'm procrastinating. I have tons of homework to do, lots to make up as a result of going to a funeral two weeks ago and going home to see Connor this past weekend. I'm trying to be good student this week. I don't like being a student first. Ahh but thats another tangent that I won't go in to.

I don't necessarily want a simpler life or to be less busy (although that would be nice). I just want to have a Kingdom mindset. Its so hard to have that when I have a test or a quiz, if not one of those then homework or a project, and then there's always the next meeting I have. I'm consumed by school and it makes me feel trapped. I know that I am called to be a student right now but it is very dissatisfing at the moment. I want to be a Mover. I want to be a Shaker. But all I am right now is busied by school. I won't let life rob me of my joy. Nor will I let it distract me from the important things in life. This is life and I'm living it. I'm not one of those people who is waiting for life to begin once I get out of school. It began when I was 10, the day I accepted Jesus into my heart. Life abundant, not mundane.