today i'm a bad study partner, sorry

Took a trip to Asheville with some very amazing ladies. Waking up to "ew...ew, ew, ew" coming from Erin, I looked just in time to see dead baby bear and its brightly colored insides in the the road. And other than the pumpking spice latte which tasted like tree bark, it was a great trip. Its funny how a day trip can make me feel like I'm away from my apartment for a long time. It was good to return home.

I'm trying to be authentic and meaningful in my relationships. Its hard sometimes. But its even more scary than it is hard. Being so open requires trust but I'm trying.

"And then came to her mind those curious questions; what makes a gentleman? what makes a gentle woman?" from Dr. Thorne by Anthony Trollope, 1858

I can use chopsticks. Thanks, Sayaka, for teaching me.

I'm still just me. If what I tell you makes you think any different, I'm sorry for the confusion. I'm still the same person I was before you knew the details. The difference is that now I have included you.

Each day it gets a little easier. Everyday it gets a little harder. I guess I'll just take a deep breath and feel. I mean really feel.