I can smell the pores in my face reeking of coffee. Gingerbread soy lattes are my new favorite right now. I love that the change in seasons brings special flavors.

Yesterday was long, weird and overall okay. My roomates brought me dinner. Then BJo cleaned up my stuff while I finished two projects. She even made my bed!! I felt so loved. It was nice and needed. And I found out that I don't have cancer. But I guess I already knew that deep down (thanks for the peace You give).

My biggest bro. is getting married in two weeks. He's going to change his last name to her's. I guess thats okay since our last name doesn't really mean anything to us but her's does to her. In three weeks my second biggest brother is graduating college...the first generation college student. I'm so proud of him. My best friend is going to Cuba to study abroad next semester. I'm a little jealous, but in a good way.

Sometimes I really want a puppy or kitten or a bunny rabit. But then I'm glad I don't have the responsibility.

Last night I met someone who asked me how I was and didn't want a superficial answer. It was energizing to come in contact with someone who also wants to move past meaningless interactions, even with strangers. I hope he comes in more often, I like real people. Tonight I met two of his friends, I liked them too. Such lovely girls...

For once I'm trying to be just me. I don't want to wear a mask or be who I think you want me to be. I'm trying to be how I was created. And its liberating. And its scary. And its good.