Come and listen to what He has done

Something in me has been broken. The Lord has brought me freedom and for the first time in about a month I feel like I am myself again.

I will NOT go back into the chains that have been loosed. I am free!!
Free to laugh
Free to have joy
Free from the LIES
Free from feeling worthless
Free from fear
Free from my sin
Free to be who Daddy has created me to be

Great is our God for he is good

The fight to keep this peace has been continual. Each morning I wake up fighting. This morning I had to force myself to get out of bed because my thoughts were starting to get the best of me. But praise Him for the victory we have in Jesus!!!

This doesn't mean that everything in my life is all of the sudden perfect or that pain has completly left me. No. But it does mean that my hope has been restored. My focus has been redirected and the peace of the Lord is here.

I desire to be like You. Like any son or daughter, I want to be like my father. I wanna be just like You.

Can we capture this all in a bottle?
Help me hold the wind in my hand.
Just for once stop the clock for a moment
When we're here and have nothing to lose,
But ourselves when it all crashes down.

Letting go of the past can be such a difficult thing to do. Its hard closing a chapter in your life even though you've started a new one. I don't want to be haunted by my past. I don''t want to cling to things that are gone. Help me to let go.

You'd think that I would be comfortable with instability by this point in my life. I'm not. I long for security. I'm learning to go to the right source for that sense of security.

Today a boy handed me a flower because he thought my work shirt said Express Yourself. We got to talking about school and stuff. When I asked him what he was interested in doing with his life he said he didn't know but he's really into worship. I really enjoy meeting fellow believers. He hoped the flower blessed me. I was more blessed by how the Body is united.

Meagan and I talked with an older woman who works at Sam's Club. She said she's from Isreal and that is why she loves Jesus (she had button with His pic on her stylish purple hat). We told her we are Jesus lovers too.

I'm craving a strawberry cupcake. Oooo or Hope's grandma's strawberry cake which is soooo yummy. Strawberry cake makes me think of being a little girl. I always requested it for my birthday cake.

Crap. I still need to file taxes. Yet again, I'm not ready to be an adult. Growing up is freaking scary.

why is it cold in April??

Easter came and went. That's one more holiday that I didn't spend with my blood family. That's become our new tradition I think. I'm so very thankful for my house church to make me apart of their family.

"Its new job week," according to Bjo. Its funny how she is going to be working for corporate and I'm switching to a local coffee shop. Today I will put in my two weeks notice. I've already written it out. When I asked about the dress code at the new job the man replied "Neat and casual. Whatever reflects your personality." That's nice. No more black pants and garnet shirt!!!

You replace my fears with love unconditional

I've had the love of my friends rallying around me recently. I'm glad to know that I'm not in this alone. The authentic relationships in my life right now are such blessings to me; more than any of them know.

I'm glad that Matt Jones is back. I'm even more glad that him and Erin make such an encouraging pair. I wish I had known a few years ago how incredibly awesome she is. I feel like I have missed time to catch up with her.

The urge to get my nose repierced is fading.

"...So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him." Luck 11:13

I am thankful for Your peace.