Autumn

I love the smells of fall, especially cinnamon, apple cider and pumpkin things. I had a pumpkin bagel with pumpkin cream cheese on it today. Yuuummmmyyy. And the pumpkin latte from Starbucks (I don't feel I have to justify going there) is sooooo good. Yes, fall is nice. Until it starts getting really cold. But a little crispness in the air would be nice. I wish leaves changed colors here. I know they do a little sometimes, but I want an abundance of color. Anyone interested in going upstate for a day trip to see the trees in the next few weeks?

My mom gave me a cinnamon broom which is currently in my room right now. It was a strong, almost over powering smell at times. But it smells like fall in my room now so that makes me happy. And I have a spiced cider candle that is amazing (not that I burn it in my dorm room...well maybe I do sometimes but I keep an eye on it).

Anyways, enough about fall. I'm procrastinating. I have tons of homework to do, lots to make up as a result of going to a funeral two weeks ago and going home to see Connor this past weekend. I'm trying to be good student this week. I don't like being a student first. Ahh but thats another tangent that I won't go in to.

I don't necessarily want a simpler life or to be less busy (although that would be nice). I just want to have a Kingdom mindset. Its so hard to have that when I have a test or a quiz, if not one of those then homework or a project, and then there's always the next meeting I have. I'm consumed by school and it makes me feel trapped. I know that I am called to be a student right now but it is very dissatisfing at the moment. I want to be a Mover. I want to be a Shaker. But all I am right now is busied by school. I won't let life rob me of my joy. Nor will I let it distract me from the important things in life. This is life and I'm living it. I'm not one of those people who is waiting for life to begin once I get out of school. It began when I was 10, the day I accepted Jesus into my heart. Life abundant, not mundane.

William Connor Wayne-Murray

So....I just recieved a phone call. I may be an aunt very shortly. By brother's fiance is being rushed to the hospital at this very moment (11:50 pm). But it may be a false labor-you know how these things are. I'm kind of excited. Connor, I can't wait to meet you! I'm going to be your favorite aunt and not just because I'm your only aunt, but because we are going to have so much fun together and trust me, we'll do cool things. And I'll teach you to call your grandmother Mimi Jean because she'll hate it...

In other news..well...umm... I don't really have much to report on. Oh wait. I went to Kentucky last week for my Grandfather's funeral (my dad's dad). Turns out he became a christian two years ago. Thank you Jesus!! Also, I had quit the bonding moment with my dad....very unexpected. He even cried. Still protecting my heart in that area though...

House church is great. The freshman one is awesome. All of the girls are amazing. They blow me away. They are so mature in some ways and still very youthful in others. They really are good. I look forward to getting to know them more. And I love having B Jo in it with me...

Seems like alot of people are stressed these days. Usually it would be me right along with them. But I refuse to let the things I have to do rob me of my joy. Life's to short for all of that. Besides, God doesn't want me to have a stressed out life. Where's the "living life abundantly" part in that?

Spider Cider candle--smells like fall to me. I like it!

Pistacio pudding is a must. But not to much. That cake batter taste will leave you feeling sicking if you digest too much.

I think that's enough rambling for one night. I need to do homework, go to bed, or prepare to drive to Charleston.

House Church

In a house church you share with one another. When one is happy, you all rejoice! And when one is sad, you mourn together as a group. Tonight we cried-sorrow and heartache was shared. One man was burdened and the rest of us shared the load. We took part in his affliction--We are a church, We are the body, We are family, We are one.

The end of a sunday

Today our house church had brunch together. We want to start meeting every Sunday becuase once a week for a few hours on Tuesdays just isn't enough. It is so nice to be a part of something. Community is great and fellowship is something that I think we all need. I am blessed to have such great people in my life right--and that stretches beyond the house church.

Prayers are being answered. It is so great to see fruit! I'm amazed by the way God answers prayers, even half hearted prayed ones.

I'm still a little awkward sometimes with the way God made me. Sometimes I wish I could be more outgoing, funny, good at small talk or various other traits I feel I am lacking. I know that He created me with a certain personality and to be a specific way, its just hard getting use to it. But I'm learning more and more to not only accept it, but to take delight in how he created me.

Freshman house church...what are we doing? Sometimes I think God is crazy when he calls certain people to lead. (Are you sure you know what you're doing God?...of course you are but i'm not so sure i'm comfortable with this. But then again, its not about me. ITS NOT ABOUT ME...whooo that's a relief)

My crush is gone, I knew that fighting it would work. Its nice to be crush free. My heart feels good.

My dream: to live up to my potential and be a mover and shaker